Poem to "My Lost Loved One"

I am standing here in darkness of night.

Surrounding me are trees and vines, 

Coldness and fright.

 

There is a dense fog encircling me.

It covers the ground, 

Swirls around the trees.

 

A fog of thoughts and memories

It chills my skin, 

Makes it impossible to see.

 

How did I get to this haunting place?

Alone, I look around 

But no footprints can be traced.

 

Mocking voices carry thru the air

“You know what you did- 

Did you know it would lead you here?”

 

Why is it I keep hearing his name?

I echo the sounds, 

Crying out to him just the same?

 

I listen intently to hear a reply.

None is returned. 

Of course not! That part of me has died.

 

The sting of truth, the pain it inflicts

I should have held on to you 

Instead I released my grip.

 

My heart, it aches like never before.

The pain is intense. 

I can’t believe they closed the door.

 

In my anger and pain I furiously swing.

Trying to ward off 

Taunting thoughts attacking my brain.

 

It's of null affect on this fog in the dark

I sink to the ground 

From the weight of grief overtaking my heart.

 

My little boy, little boy, my firstborn son

I let go of you 

When I should have brought you home.